Life & Death

So I was thinking about death the other day, well, more like the past two months and a couple of ideas have formulated in my mind. I don't really know how to express them, so I'll just get into it I suppose.

I was reading about this stuff called Dimethyltryptamine, its a hallucinogenic tryptamine that apparently has a role in creating your dreams (when you smoke it, you go into a very dream like trip) but it is also speculated that when you die a large dose is pumped into your brain. For some reason this brought to mind the closing scene of American Beauty, " I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn't a second at all, it stretches on forever, like an ocean of time..."

It got me thinking about how you can be sleeping and wake up and look at the clock and see that the time is 8:07AM. Fall back asleep and have an extremely elaborate dream that seems to last days. Then wake up and see it is only 8:08AM. Time is really an interesting concept. A minute can seem like an hour, a day like an hour. When we are dead what is the difference between one second and a millenium? Is it possible that the after life is a drug induced dream? What would that say about heaven and hell? I really have no idea. But it's an interesting thought. We die, our brains are flooded with Dimethyltryptamine creating a new reality, our afterlife; sweet dreams, nightmares, night terrors, wet dreams. Like Brian Wilson sang, "God Only Knows."

I have always believed in God, for as long as I remember. I can't imagine a world this beautiful and complex without one. I like to believe that an all powerful God could easily design us so that our evolutionary path would lead to us having this biological system that creates an afterlife. It's God for Christsake! If that is the case, why would it matter if we are good or bad on earth? If death is only a dreamlike trip. What about people who are brain dead or have their head smashed in a car crash, shot, etc? I have no idea. but it's an interesting thought. I would like to imagine that perhaps those who live a righteous life would have a happy dream and those angry mean people have a nightmare. I have had some scary fuckin' nightmares. Hellish almost.

But what about Jesus? Well, from what I have learned from him, you should lead a holy and righteous life. I am sure if you live in the manner Jesus would want you to you would have a really great dream.

Now, I do realize that this is just a late night rambling and I have ZERO authority in any of these fields, AND I didn't even explain or even attempt to expand on any of my ideas, but I am really just bored and waiting for my laundry to dry.

Plus, I wanted to begin to put my thoughts into words. Even if it is poorly written and complete B.S.